Positivity and negativity
It feels like an ongoing challenge in my life that whenever I give thought to makes me feel more guilty than hopeful. Usually because negativitly is apart of who I am. I complain a lot. I repeat bitterness tomyself because of some weird pleasure it gives me.
Its hard to change tour actual thoughts not because of lack of want but because of forgetfulness
And then the bad feeling of forgetting links with the guilt and thinking about it all together becomes a negative thought.
Just like in meditation, they say everytime u catch yourself thinking, congratulat yourself instead of being angry at yourself. Its hard to even put yourself in that other side of the thought. Jus tlike when u want to believe conspiracy theories.
Seeing the other side of something is the hardest thing to do. Weather it be educationg yourself on another side of a theory, or understanding someone elses side of the argument, or realizing that you are too hard on yourself than you should be. But the rewards are as good as the challenge is hard.